And if,when he tried a second time to replace her name with another ,
for a second time his hand froze,perhaps it was because he knew that
to remove her would be like erasing all the punctuation,and the vowels,
and ever adjective and noun.
Because without Alma,there have been no book.


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What is a hug to you? What does it feel like? Perhaps, you may be one of those who give and receive them so often,it's like drinking water. I was never one to receive hugs,much less give them.It may be my dislike for having such close contact with other people besides my family.Or perhaps,it's more like i never once thought of giving them. What can a hug mean?What is a hug supposed to mean? A source of comfort, perhaps from a friend to another. I never thought much of hugs.I once scoffed at them,thinking them as a juvenile way of expressing care and concern.But maybe it was because I was afraid to give them. Have i ever asked for a hug? No I don't think so. Why? I don't know.

 The Virgin Suicides
Jeffrey Eugenides
For Gus and War L
On the morning the last Lisbon daughter took her turn at suicide-it was
Mary this time, and sleeping pills, like Therese, the two paramedics
arrived at the house knowing exactly where the knife drawer was, and the
gas oven, and the beam in the basement from which it was possible to tie
a rope. They got out of the EMS truck, as usual moving much too slowly
in our opinion, and the fat one said under his breath, "This ain't TV,
folks, this is how fast we go." He was carrying the heavy respirator and
cardiac unit past the bushes that had grown monstrous and over the
erupting lawn, tame and immaculate thirteen months earlier when the
trouble began.

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